The Crapzzz
The pain is killing me... I'm getting sick of crying and the sorrows and anger are just stuck within me. Sad dat u didn't told me when u stop loving me, dat it ended like this. Angry at myself for devoting myself so much in this love, which seems hopeless in ur mind. Perhaps you dun feel anything abt breaking up, perhaps you dun even feel anything for me b4. Perhaps you were using me all this while to forget him. Frm wad lev said, u still got feeling. I promise you a meet cause i feel dat there could be chance. Why did u tell me dat u got no feelings for me today when the reason you told me last night was dat you dun wanna hurt me. It's two complete thing. I dunno... I'm just stuck to you, i dun feel lyk loving anymore for this year, perhaps the whole of secondary life, perhaps till i grown mature... I dunno about you, if i left any impact on you. I supposed you wun mind loving sum1 else, i supposed. I really devoted myself in this love which i thought wud last. Perhaps i'm just a pathetic lover, dat's why ur feeling faded... I dunno if there's anything on life for me to live on for, for i once live for you... The pain is killing me, slowly torturing me. I wanted to attempt suicide but i could not bring myself to it. My heart belongs to you- play with it, destory it or do wadeva you want for all i care. I wun stop loving you for the rest of this yr, the remaining 145 days. If the impact is still there, i might probably live the next 3yrs hoping you would come back to me. Perhaps my letter dun make any sense to you, Perhaps you felt nth when u left me, Perhaps we weren't meant for each other... Wad crap m i talking abt, i wud love you wif the hope of you coming back to me one day. I really need you, probably i'm just addicted to you. I dunno... Gd luck in ur next love life... No matter what, best wishes. If ur heart tells you to start again, just start... I promise dat i wud love you till i dunno when but it wud surely be later than the year 2004. Just dun lie to yourself... Bye and take care...
Longingly missing you... I dunno if i could stand up again.
IcyRoy took a breath on 8/08/2004 05:07:00 PM
