The Crapzzz
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Went out with my next year classmates/judokas and seniors yesterday to ECP again. It seems like it was always high tide the whole of yesterday. Anyway, that didn't stop us from taking off our clothes and dip into the sea. It was great. Started trying to make stones jump on water and were searching for stones in the seabed. Somehow, i am always the one to find the big stones. Anyway, we did handstand and breakfall on the coast. It was damn funny and fun...
Anyway, was laughing myself mad the whole of yesterday. My seniors are damn funny. We managed to solve one maths question from our hw yesterday. At least we did something.
New year resolution [Inspired by ben's] Train harder. Mug more. Shud get my first gold next year (Directed to sherman =p)
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/30/2004 11:34:00 AM
Sunday, December 26, 2004
This holidays... I admit it, I must. I'm a Pig!!! Okay, I'm!!! I did nothing much... My daily time table is use com, eat, sleep. I never exercise at all!!! I went out to plae, watch movie but never really exercise other than to cycle. Aww... My muscles are turning into flabs of meat. My almost visible abs are turning into a lump of meat as well!!! Awwww... There goes the training for this year. Heh...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/26/2004 05:05:00 PM
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Sigh, lonely, boring, sad Christmas... Its not even Merry!!! Manage to stay up till quite late last night, at 5am when my bro just came home. Had to go back to bed when my mum woke up and started nagging. Sigh, Sianz... Just reached home after having dinner at Bukit Panjang Plaza KOPITIAM. Eh, nice place for dinner on a christmas eh? Somehow, i dun even feel the warmth of christmas. I feel cold... I feel nothing from my family. Its just like friends gathering around for a meal? Initially, I was hoping dat I can get myself a gift, but then, its worthless? Oh yar, and I saw this disgusting pervert today. He's mad, touching gals' ass and grinning... Get a life...
Love doesn't exist... Loving comes from the fear of losing something. That's why people love someone so deep. Getting intimate comes from humans sexual needs. That's why teens go to the extreme. Its amazing how something dat doesn't exist can actually repeats itself... Weird life...
At least a puzzle is solved...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/25/2004 10:18:00 PM
Friday, December 24, 2004
Oh yar, i forgotten ta wish ya guys merry christmas!
here it goes...
Fantastic X'mas
And A
Fabulous year 2005 ahead!
T.C
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/24/2004 11:08:00 PM
Illusions...
When choices are made, does it make any difference? Choices are god's way of tormenting us, his choice of fun. Can we escape the facts lying in front of us? No matter which path we take, we can't escape reality? Is there an easy way out of this? Is fate really predestined? Do we have any say in our life? Are we just puppets created by gods, with batteries installed? Having our body tortured, with our mind suffering the aftermath... Does it make sense that guy shudn't cry even if they are bleeding? Is blood more painful, or is it tears? Does it all make sense? Why can't guys cry? Is there really a thing called love? Or is it another way of torment? Why do people fall into love? Is it because of their desire? Or are people just so desperate to experience it? Forcing myself to smile, does it make sense? Being lame... Being mad... Deceiving myself to be happy... Break these chains of puzzles I can't solve...
I don't know why... Dun hide anything from me, I know it. I hate the feelings of being deceived. I hate myself for deceiving myself. Feeling of being lonely this christmas. Stuck in this family where i can't find peace, trapped in reality I can't escape from. I thought i forgotten everything. The aftermath of our convers... I would rather remained blocked forever. I need someone to confide in. I need to get rid of all this feelings... i don't want to face this! I feel horrible... People thinking i'm lame, but u shud knw why... Aergh, how long do i still need? I am
Exhausted of all these... At times, I really have the verge of screaming out loud... Why... Why...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/24/2004 10:30:00 PM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
Aergh... Was staying up late last night, drawing pics of dunno wad. Woke up in a rather bad mood. So during last minute, i decided to head down to orchard, to watch kung fu hustle! How suay could i get. In the bus, i was stared by this werido gal who got some kinda disease. Somehow, I didn't even feel kelian for her, I was dead annoyed and awkward! How am i supposed to react!!! She was staring at me as if i was some shuai ge like dat... And even though i moved away, she turn and stares at me. Aergh... I hate it!
Assure me!!! PLZ
Met with Kai Xiang and Siu Kit at 12+ and dunno why, they went to have lunch at taka, which was so far away from cathay? In the end, I waited for them till 1pm, 5min before the movie starts. Meanwhile, I saw this judoka from RGS with his bf. Anyway, dun ask me how I remember her. Its just her face... The kind of unique "bitchy" looks...
The more i think, the more doubtful i get...
Oh yar, Kung Fu Hustle is a damn hilarious movie! Its so so funny! Somehow, its like Shrek! A mix of many different movie! Guys, go watch it! Went to Kx hse after the movie. His hse is so tidy! So clean... Haha, and mine is erhem erhem... Anyway, I was just told I looked christianish... Do i?
Emotions... Jealousy... Aergh!
Send or not to send... Nah, its too late... And its pointless.
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/23/2004 08:19:00 PM
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Hahaha... I just watched shrek on tape this morning... It was so nice!!! Humourous, emotional and sweeet... Haha, love is such a weird thing. Anyway, I was laughing my head off. Seriously, the creator of shrek must be so creative to actually blend fairy tales in such a way. Haha... Nicey...
Ya knw, i DUNNO all YOUR address!
Went out in the afternoon for my dental check up. At first, I thought they just wanted to check if there was any progress but then... he... He TIGHTEN my braces!!! Now, my teeth feel weird. One of my front teeth feels the pain, the other numb numb de. So just now, when i was eating my dinner, I gotta use my hands, place the food at the right area of my mouth [where it doesn't hurts] and chew... Awww weee...
Oh yar, anyway, I wanna thx Hsuan Te for the christmas card! Haha... Its the only one this year! =D At least i received one. But on another thought, i'm getting less popular! I got 2 last year!!! Haha... One is betta than nothing.
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/22/2004 10:17:00 PM
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
East coast park rawkz! Haha, went out with Ben, Josh, Kx, Siu kit yesterday... Initially half of the sec 2 judokas are supposed to turn up but all came up with excuses!!! Haha... Went to suntec first for breakfast/lunch at 11am. After that, at abt 12, we headed to east coast. Heh, reached bedok mrt to find out that 401 and the shuttle bus service are only available on weekends! So i didn't know what to do! But we managed to board onto 197 and walked a distance to east coast. I feel so bad!!! The rest dun want to go out with me next time le... Awww...
Anyway, first thing we did dere was to rent the bicycles! Yeah, after walking for so long. Weird thing anyway is that we went back the road we came from. After like an hour, kx was having stomachache and josh fell down while performing a stunt. Heh... So we gotten sian of riding, and started playing frisbee... Haha, after that, we started "wedding"(wading) in the sea, started picking up shells, live calms and wadeva. Next, we went totally mad... The five of us digged a big hole, put our legs in and started burying our legs.... Haha, felt like kids! But not much pple were looking so who cares...
Haha, anyway, the reciept of the rental of bike was totally soaked. Cause i went into the sea with it... Haha, the people at the bicycle shop nearly thought that I went into the sea with the bike. After returning the bikes, we went ta catch prawns! =) Haha, for once, I finally caught prawns! In fact, i caught 3! Ben managed to catch 3 on his first time. And he also caught one fish! Inside the prawn pool. Josh, the poor guy paid $20 for a prawn... Haha... Anyway, being judokas, we were curious as in why prawn(Sth we do during trng to escape hold) is called prawn. So we started observing the prawns and found out that prawn came from prawn. Yar, how prawn prawn is seriously marvellous... I ought to learn from it.
At night, siu kit left early. Think it was the lastest time he ever went out with friends. Haha, but all the better... 4 person was just nice for daidee... Forfeit was a truth. If no question was asked, 3 truth can accumulate to a dare. Me and josh kept on losing!!! In the end, we were forced to do handstand on the pathway or somewhere near there. Poor josh...
Anyway, the highlight, i saw my P5 form tutor!!! I cudn't find her since last year le... But i... i... i didn't talk to her!!! And somehow, i felt that she had forgotten me. Was laughing everynow and then yesterday. Had a great time crapping... Haha, I just realised my entry meant nth much, but who cares... Lolz... Bye Bye...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/21/2004 09:38:00 AM
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Yahoo... I just survived the last judo training for this month. Haha, but things didn't start out so well. I was the one leading the warm-up today. Was so stress... Imagine all the pairs of eyes staring at me. Was damn scared that I was gonna say the jap ver of 1234 wrongly. Anyway, it went smoothly. A batch of unluckies were chosen to fight for 10 bouts which was totally mad? Seeing how those black belts threw... Aergh! They fought entirely about 30 mins! It's heartless...
Over-sensitivity...
Went out to fight lotsa times today... In total, I fought 1 black, 1blue, 2 orange, 2 yellow. For newaza, I fought 4 black, 1 brown. Haha, felt so shiok though. Am loving this... Anyway, every training is a lesson. After fighting with so many pros, at least I learnt much. Heh, my new goal... B'div next year! Oh yeah...
I seriously dunno how long i'll take... Sigh, sry.
Anyway, am trying to drag the sec 2 judokas into gtg east coast next week. All of them are asking the same question, wad to do dere? Heh, i haven't figure it out. Cycling, fishing, Splashing each other with water? Haha, anything else? Tag --- >
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/18/2004 06:33:00 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Just returned home after watching national treasure... Seriously, if ya didn't read da vinci code, it wud be nice... Somehow, the movie is sorta like Da Vinci Code except that it isn't as exciting. After watching the movie, I was thinking that, since the treasure wasn't hidden in somewhere so secretive, why didn't anyone figure it out? It was just in a church, behind a block of clay. Obviously after so many years, surely wud have at least one pple who bang against the wall before to find out that the back is hollow? Anyway, another question... Since there was an easier route to the treasure, why they took the long route which required the keys and all dat? Aww... Hoped that a Da Vinci Code movie would be produced...
Realised that after putting on braces, I'm having serious pronouciation errors... Sprinting, it becomes springing. Bamboo becomes BAM BOO... Gosh... Moral of story, please talk to me in chinese!!! Anyway, i realised that I'm allergic to mosquitoes! Yeah, was sitting around the parade square during pt and got stung like 6 times... And the sting swell to become huge freaking dots... Ask the rest, it's freaky...
P.S: Any judokas who wanna go east coast next mon? Very de bo liao staying at home...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/16/2004 03:53:00 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
Just went out with my mum to buy my LONG pants... Yeah, after waiting on the thoughts for ages... For two long years, I had survived the humiliation of wearing short pants, the humiliation of being so uncool!!! Lolz... Yeah, finally, I survived till todays... Long pants!!! Hwa Chong, Short Pants... [Lame, but who cares?] Haha...
I bought extra shirts as well... Was growing outta my shirt already. Seriously, after changing into long pants and simulating myself as if I was gtg to cool... I look so duper cool... Lolz, or was it the long pants... At least it made me looked more mature compared to last time... It made me look more grown-up, more adultish... Haha, dats all... C'yaz.
If u are reading this... The tree... Good luck... >.-
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/15/2004 04:08:00 PM
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Seriously, it didn't come to me that I was selfish... I entirely forgotten about you- that you dun show your feelings. It just didn't come to me... Come to think of it, I'm really sorry to somehow or what make you feel awful. Maybe I caused the hurt afterall... I'm sorry...
Our path splited... Good luck in life, okay? Farewell till then...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/14/2004 01:58:00 PM
Monday, December 13, 2004
Perhaps things never really change dat much? Just the thoughts change... It didn't seems that bad at all... Afterall...
Went for a wedding dinner last night at prima tower. The food was horrible!!! The shark fin was so watery and the scallops aren't really scallop, they are squashed! Aww... Was feeling so bored yesterday. Stuck between a group of teochew speaking relatives and a few pri sch kids, no one talked to me! I miss smsing... The rest were all like saying I was so tall. Haha, at least that's good about gathering. Wore something very poser-ist yesterday. A white espirit shirt with jeans and a new leather watch my relative gave me[damn ex], leather shoes [my bro] and a necklace which looks rather funky...
Nothing much to add on... I supposed... I just hope my instinct aren't wrong...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/13/2004 11:08:00 AM
Friday, December 10, 2004
I guess its finally over... For now... It wasn't any perfect ending... At least, I hope it would be happy for either one of us... Seriously, I dun believe what you said. Seriously, I rather choose to believe that. Seriously, I think this is the best way out... I ain't escaping, I ain't facing it... Sigh, the thought started haunting me last night and I spent my night, pondering, sorting things out. At least its all over now... Sigh...
Sayonara... Farewell...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/10/2004 05:17:00 PM
Thursday, December 09, 2004
Gosh... Jason, for once, you overslept!!! Haha, the whole club was so happy that he wasn't there and Jason was soooo sorry for not being able to attend. Poor guy... Seriously, I would rather he come. Did nothing much for physical training today other than to run to novena... Though the distance was quite far, it was still too jian dan le... Sianz...
Haha, i seriously dunno how to face you... Or talk to you again...
Went out with the sec2 again and after a coin toss and many many more, the conclusion was to watch Casshern but since it will start only at 12.25, the rest drag me to watch shutter!!! Yikes... Haha, seriously, the movie was quite funny and meanwhile quite freaky... gosh, there was once which i remember i did let out some voice... The bloody face was too freaky... Seriously, horror movie don't creep people out unless you seriously think about it... The feeling of some spirit hanging around your neck all the while, yet you can't get rid of it... Driving yourself nuts... And the spirit who was gang raped, it was quite pityful for her... And she did spared a thought about those not involved... Quite a nice movie...
Perhaps we shouldn't even be friends now...
Dat's all... Ta-ta...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/09/2004 02:59:00 PM
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Just returned from chalet yesterday... It's over! 203's history...
Initially, I got lots of things to complain about... But now, i got only two! Heh... I guess it's good...
Feelings... Fading... Soon it'll be gone...
I just don't understand why the host had to go play LAN with dinny and byong when it's supposed to be a chalet?! Gosh... And the worst thing is they played for hours and hours till 10+pm and what are the rest supposed to do? Yeah, and talk about going to escape and wild wild wet? We were supposed to go!!! But then, the rest were too busy playing ps2!!! Why do all these when it can be done elsewhere? Sianz... Go there do nothing, just sit, sleep, walk, bomb and play...
Thoughts... Making me sad... Forgetting all...
Went to sports conference on tuesday... It was quite alright, i supposed? It started out pretty badly cause my friend's father was supposed to bring me to SJI but he ended up at the wrong chalet... So he was calling me, asking about my friend when I was in school. In the performing art centre, he called again! And i was trying to stop the phone vibration so i just randomly press the button on my hp through my track pants... God, it ended up in loudspeaker!!! Plus brother michael was sitting in front... Glad that my phone wasn't confiscated... Managed to see Singapore athletics like C.kunalan and james wong. And i even get to see the olympic torch!!! =) Haha, anyway... One special note, before 2.4km or X-country, drink coffee or anything containing caffine... It'll help!!! Dozed off during one of the most important session! Sports recovery!!! Aww...
Love... I changed... Our attitude changed... Fading... Alot...
Just came back after physical training... It was pathetic... A big meanie ex-captain and 3 sec2 judokas... What can you expect? Torture!!! Anyway, my 2.4 timing is getting worse... It's only 11.32! I'm doing sit-up at a slower rate... I need a balanced diet!!! Been feeling nauseous nowadyas too... I don't know why...
Went with the sec2 to watch without a paddle just now... It wasn't that nice... Basically using cheap horny jokes... However, I like the moral of the story... Treasure friends... I will, when i find one that deserve to...
I hate myself, ya know? I can't do anything... Helpless...
Feel like making an edible chocalate house for christmas with M&N, marsh mallow and biscuit... On second thought... I don't know why...
Who wanna watch Casshern?? Drag me along!!!
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/02/2004 03:48:00 PM