The Crapzzz
Saturday, January 22, 2005
A innocent carefree boy...
In the midst of an open field, a beautiful white lily just bloomed. Someone saw it, sat by it and admire it. It was well taken care of, day and night. It was watered, it was given nutrients. The flower had all it wanted. Love... However, mistakes do happen. The flower was trampled on. By who? By no one but the someone who saw it, by the someone who sat by it, by the someone that admire it. The once litted petals decompose into black ugly petals. It was beyond recognisation. No one could ever imagined its beauty... In the past. Why that someone did that? For he never knew... He never knew his actions, till all was done.
Aww... CIP again!!! How i wished that the government never imposed such cruelty acts to students. I mean what is the use of five days week when we still got to do CIP on SAT? Argh, i missed training... And of course, Randori!!! Anyway, a few reasons why I hate CIP.
1: the more i speak, the more the braces pierces into my lips. So the many times I said "wud u like to make a donation" = to the times of pain I felt. Awww...
2: I hate people who diao us! Whats their problem.
3: I hate to lose [Heh] and its like I always collect the least money one.
4: I feel bad- Cause I'm the rep and others are always telling me to organise entertainment programs when I aren't supposed to. And most of the time, I got drawn in.
Yep, Thats the reasons, I think. Will think of more by next sat. Another CIP. -_- But its the last CIP of the year XD Haha, good news, i guess. Anyway, in reply to Derrick's enrty. I totally agree. Humans are borned to be hypocrites. We will never know the real us. We may choose to believe that we are the normal lame self we normally see, but think of it from another perspective, we do lame stuff to entertain ourselves? Cause we are dying from boredom?We will never know our true self. No one does, I think. Anyway, I guess true love doesn't exist now. People can't be themselves in front of members from the opposite sex. Its just like that. Hypocrites, I hate people who obliged to girls in everything, I hate people who try to be nice in order to get close to girls. In fact, I realised I sound like that. Crap, why am I talking about this?
Give me a break... I hate CIP.
Eh, wud this design for the shirt be nice?
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/22/2005 09:43:00 PM
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
The orcale... Seen as 3 stars in a row in the night sky. It seems to mean something, it seems to mean alot of things... At least to me. It stands out among the rest, it seems to shine brighter. It means unity, it means faith... No matter what, they are always together, never to be seperated. How nice it seems to be... But its not. Does it applies to couples? A third party or so? Would it be happy? Mind tormenting choices... Things seem to be more than what it seems, doesn't it?
I somehow feel weird. Somehow, I'm feeling why am I given such a role, that at times I feel that I doesn't fit in. I was afraid of it initially, that there is possiblity that I may be captain for 2006 but I overcame it. It just came to me that I'm feeling helpless, vuglar, irresponsible. I do not have the leadership quality. Look at the rest of the rep, Jason for eg, he was so damn friendly, a PSF, a prefect, a good leader but what do I have? I ain't any friendly guy, I ain't a PSL, not to say a PSF, and I feel that I lack leadership. I feel that I'm having this attitude problem. Am I training to make up for my role? Am I really so enthu or am I just acting? Perhaps Benedict is right, I ought to give up? I must build up my leadership quality... I should be more mature... But things can't be forced. It's pointless... Helplessly pathetic. That in the end... I... Will no longer... Be...
Doing things I shudn't... Feel what I must not... Feel it...
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/18/2005 08:45:00 PM
Hmm, been quite a while since i last blogged cause i dun feel like! Aww... Time passes very fast. After two weeks of school, i realised i flunked lotsa tests liao! Sianz.
Haiz, i hate that stupid 100hours CIP thingy! On this sat, it will be my 3rd cip for the year! I missed randori, so i think i shud intend to go back to train with ya guys after it [That is if there's trng]. Anyway, went to north point for my last two cip and i realised the world is so damn biased. This pathetic security guard seems to hate SJI boys or what. Its like the girls can freely ask for donation inside the premises and guys can't! And yeah, he even ordered the guy in 7 11 to confiscate our tins if we continued asking inside the tiles or wad. -.- Crapz... Whats the use of asking us to ask for donation if people don't let us, people trying to get us off their tails? Is that the point for CIP? Did we ask to be doing all this?
I Hate this world...
I feel that i make a very bad leader... So i guess i must work harder. Really hard.
Achieve what u think, what u want...
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/17/2005 06:04:00 PM
I realised something. Not that I just realised but by staring into someone eyes, you can see what he's thinking. Eyes are useful in showing whether if one is sad, hurt, close to tears, curious, has a crush on you et cetera. Haha, this certainly sounds wu liao but it works!!! Oh yar, it also shows to prove one thing, whether guys are pervert or not. Realised at times when I go out, guys' eyes are slanted to one side like when a chiobu walk past or those stupid revealing girls walk past, the guys' eyes will follow along one. How typical a guy can be... Anyway, all these craps about eyes, it really works! Try it out now... Stare into the eyes of others. [Lame oh lame me...]
Stare into my eyes...
Went out yesterday to play bowling again. Been trying to do a cruve for 2 games until i realised that its very wasteful and i showed no improvement, i gave up. I refuses to lose man. Been unable to get the shou ce lor, so sian. Oh, and i realised how crapy I can get. Sec3 and still sitting on the playground. Irrelavant. Okay, I talked and talked till 9+. Good or bad?
I hate the thoughts of being deceived, I hate being deceived.
Aww... Been appointed as the english rep in class, thanks to hsuan te! U good! I dun wanna be a rep, i dun wan a role in class. I dun like class at all!
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/10/2005 07:17:00 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
Ah wheee... First week of school has passed! Finally... Phew... Okay, here's an overview on school life after a week:
1. Mr Lam [Physics teacher] got this serious problem of walking up and down the class while talking, irritating yet funny. [Perhaps he's on a diet]
2. Mdm Tan [1 of the Judo teacher in charge and my chinese teacher] is weird. She cracked jokes which i think people laugh cause of her expressions. She always picks on judokas.
3. Mr Chen [Chemistry teacher] He's quite slow in teaching but what is impressive is that he wrote the chemistry textbook for Singapore! Impressive...
4. Some of the scholars speak in the very fluent english essense. Somehow, I don't dare to talk to them.
5. Miss D'Costa [Main judo teacher in charge] She got this very disgusting habit of calling others dear
6. My classmates are unique [Most of them looks 180, I looked short] [Got this guy in my class is only 4 years old cause his birthday is on the 29th of Feb, Kewl...] [Another guys birthday falls on the 1st of January]
7. I love bowling [Am still figuring how to do a curve spin]
Thats all I guess... I feel so bad for gtg to play bowling while going for CIP. But its like people nowadays only donate to the tsunami one. ZZZ... And I still got another round of CIP next week. What a very good way to start this year. X/
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/08/2005 06:18:00 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Was unable to post last night about my 1st day in school cause i was playing with my new Xbox!!! Wheee... XD
Anyway, my new class is totally er...liveless? Sad? Boring? Nerdy? Was soooo shocked to see my classmates for the first time. First thing, I'm certain I had never seen most of them before. I never see before more than half my new classmates before. I'm so certain that I knew like 80% of the sec2 face lor and i dunno half of their faces? Wad am i talking about? Next, they look so damn freaking tall, that I feel short! all of them are like 178 like that, 180+ even...
Anyway, the scholars are weird. They even find reading the diary interesting. Most likely, our class wun win the interclass shield. We dun have that many no. of sporty pple in class. There is this guy name Ju-On in class. Mdm tan, one of the teacher in-charge-of judo is in my class. And the way she greeted me was -.- "Ni you mei you mian zi arh?" Coz she thought i was from higher chinese de. Think she's gonna pick on me in the future. And life's gtg too fast. Finished learning two topics for yesterday.
Seriously, my blog entry dun make much sense. I'm just gonna start mugging. Haha, at least my aim is to beat DERRICK and all those from 203. Muahaha... Watch out!
Oh, this is wad kx and me thought of for the poster:
Cool?
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/04/2005 09:47:00 PM
Heh, finally, for my new year resolution for this year, for year 2005...
1. Train harder [ As in more enthu, no slacking, fight more randori]
2. Get into B Div for next year [Partially for track suit, partially to win Desmond]
3. Get my first gold
4. Be more responsible for my role
5. Study harder [At least top 15]
6. Try and be more friendly [Take note, TRY]
7. Exercise more [so that i can be/look more muscular]
8. Grow taller
9. Be nicer to my family
10. Try not to be too mean on others
11. Sincerely apologise to u for everything
I'm gonna stick to it!!! I mean it... Muahaha, watch out guys...
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/02/2005 01:48:00 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
About the tsunami incident...
Its not that I'm sadistic but aren't the world showing that they are hypocrites? The earthquake that cause the tsunami, did the world care about it? The world didn't really take it into mind? Was rescue team sent? But after the tsunami take place, rescue team were sent, funds raising. All these craps. Do people really care? Or are they just trying to show that they care?
Anyway, i'm not saying i dun give a damn about the whole incident, its really damn scary to happen. I mean u witnessed the whole wave coming towards u and u didn't have enuf time but to only save ur own life? Seeing people you know being washed away and u cudn't do anything?
Sometimes, I would rather live my own life, where I don't confide in anyone. Betrayal, threats, helplessness... I hate it. I hate doing things against my will. I hate being forced. I hate doing things which i want to get rid of. At least it proves one thing.
Betrayal for the sake of fun... lame
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/01/2005 10:39:00 PM