The Crapzzz
I dunno wad to live on for right now... She left me. Perhaps i live for a day when she would come back to me. It's like the only reason for me to live on for now. The pain is graudally killing me, a pain of remorse, hurt blended together. I really want to try this whole thing again, when u still have abit of feeling for me. I dunno if u did love me before for u do not look sad at all. Probably the happy moments aren't happy enough for they don't stick inside you. Thoughts of happy moments only bring me hurt, for losing you... Perhaps i'm selfish, i wanna try this whole thing again now and i dun care if u still got feelings for me. Please, if there's feelings for me, please try this again... Dat's wad i live for. I always feel dat we would last... We would last till my bufdae, last till next yr valentine, last till next yr concert. I thought this year would be my happiest bufdae, but it dun seem so now. No matter wad, celebrating with a "friend" and a "girlfriend" is completely different. All the promise we made, I dun feel lyk breaking them. I had no regrets at all for my devotion was because i feel this would last. I would prefer highs and lows in a relationship. I would mind the hurt again if u do return... I dunno... I really want you... I still love you. I cried my eyes sore and i dun feel lyk crying again. I'm just letting the hurt confine in me, slowly killing me. i felt lyk biting my lips, to make it bleed... Perhaps my entry dun make sense, perhaps my letter too. Please... I want to try this again...
Longing for the day when you would dare to try this again...
IcyRoy took a breath on 8/09/2004 10:15:00 AM
