The Crapzzz
Sunday, September 05, 2004
People are telling me that it isn't my fault... So many people... Yet, I just couldn't bring myself to believe that. Blame me for being stupid or whatsoever, it was partially my fault. Perhaps people feel that I'm sad... Perhaps people think I'm wallowing in self pity, I could not forget that fact that I asked for it... I so much blame my character for being so emotional. Sigh, it was not entirely my fault. Felt so much like giving up yesterday cause of some advices I get, I couldn't bring myself to... I persisted on...
Had a very slack training yesterday, I can say. Played don't know how many bouts of randori yesterday... Getting thrown, throwing others... It's the same old routine. Grading is next Saturday... Am kind of anxious over it because there's shi-ai, not like I never played shi-ai before, but am kinda eager to try out my new style of playing. Hopefully it would work. Spend half an hour after training talking to my ex-captain (sec4) and the current captain. Sigh... Life...
Am going for a bbq later, am gonna consumed lots of oil later. Am gonna play tennis later and most importantly, am gonna swim...
Lost... Confused... Should I, or should I not?
IcyRoy took a breath on 9/05/2004 09:41:00 AM