The Crapzzz
Friday, December 24, 2004
Illusions...
When choices are made, does it make any difference? Choices are god's way of tormenting us, his choice of fun. Can we escape the facts lying in front of us? No matter which path we take, we can't escape reality? Is there an easy way out of this? Is fate really predestined? Do we have any say in our life? Are we just puppets created by gods, with batteries installed? Having our body tortured, with our mind suffering the aftermath... Does it make sense that guy shudn't cry even if they are bleeding? Is blood more painful, or is it tears? Does it all make sense? Why can't guys cry? Is there really a thing called love? Or is it another way of torment? Why do people fall into love? Is it because of their desire? Or are people just so desperate to experience it? Forcing myself to smile, does it make sense? Being lame... Being mad... Deceiving myself to be happy... Break these chains of puzzles I can't solve...
I don't know why... Dun hide anything from me, I know it. I hate the feelings of being deceived. I hate myself for deceiving myself. Feeling of being lonely this christmas. Stuck in this family where i can't find peace, trapped in reality I can't escape from. I thought i forgotten everything. The aftermath of our convers... I would rather remained blocked forever. I need someone to confide in. I need to get rid of all this feelings... i don't want to face this! I feel horrible... People thinking i'm lame, but u shud knw why... Aergh, how long do i still need? I am
Exhausted of all these... At times, I really have the verge of screaming out loud... Why... Why...
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/24/2004 10:30:00 PM