The Crapzzz
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
The orcale... Seen as 3 stars in a row in the night sky. It seems to mean something, it seems to mean alot of things... At least to me. It stands out among the rest, it seems to shine brighter. It means unity, it means faith... No matter what, they are always together, never to be seperated. How nice it seems to be... But its not. Does it applies to couples? A third party or so? Would it be happy? Mind tormenting choices... Things seem to be more than what it seems, doesn't it?
I somehow feel weird. Somehow, I'm feeling why am I given such a role, that at times I feel that I doesn't fit in. I was afraid of it initially, that there is possiblity that I may be captain for 2006 but I overcame it. It just came to me that I'm feeling helpless, vuglar, irresponsible. I do not have the leadership quality. Look at the rest of the rep, Jason for eg, he was so damn friendly, a PSF, a prefect, a good leader but what do I have? I ain't any friendly guy, I ain't a PSL, not to say a PSF, and I feel that I lack leadership. I feel that I'm having this attitude problem. Am I training to make up for my role? Am I really so enthu or am I just acting? Perhaps Benedict is right, I ought to give up? I must build up my leadership quality... I should be more mature... But things can't be forced. It's pointless... Helplessly pathetic. That in the end... I... Will no longer... Be...
Doing things I shudn't... Feel what I must not... Feel it...
IcyRoy took a breath on 1/18/2005 08:45:00 PM