The Crapzzz
Monday, December 04, 2006
Do I look like i freaking have a choice?
Got forced back to work again today. Went to my dad's workplace at pasir panjang on sat so missed camp in an attempt to stop my mum nagging. But it didnt work. Okay, the first day wasnt so bad. Walk around, talked to my relatives there. Then last night, sorta argue/discuss with my dad and bro about blah blah blah and he came to the conclusion that i should go back and help but i felt theres no need. Went to sleep and couldn't get to sleep cause i was thinking whether to go or not. If i don't go, my dad would feel sad? my mum wud continue nagging. But if i go also got nth for me to do? I got like so much hols resolution to do. Plus tmr, peeps got trng and prolly can't go out with them. I felt like crap cause i feel so helpless, stressed out and even frustrated that i cant do a thing.
Woke up at 6plus this morning and followed my dad with my ever sulking black face. I was darn pissed. Down there, i lazed around and basically stoned in an empty office till 10am. Like wth. Even when clerk came, i also had nothing to do but just look at her type out invoices. I was so bored, its almost like ellen woo lessons. Took out my phone and searched for random targets to SMS. Occasionally i get some tasks to do but thats like in every 20 mins. I might as well stay at home and start clearing my room. I mean if theres like things to do and they cant manage, i wun mind helping. But wads the point if i have nothing to do? And my mum just asked me to go again tmr. Screw it, today is my last. I mean it.
I heard joey and yvonne injured themselves during TT. Take care dudez.
All i ask for is just for someone whom i can confide in. Is it such a difficult wish? Im tired of keeping every damn thing to myself. I just wanna let it out but is there a place for that? Is there someone whos openhearted enough to just listen to my everylasting whining. dream on i should.
IcyRoy took a breath on 12/04/2006 08:24:00 PM
