The Crapzzz
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Oh man, this god damn feeling sucks.
Seriously, I dun have enough time to do what I want and ought to do. I somehow feel suffocated now, staring blankly at the maths tutorials on my table, having no clues at all on how to solve despite reading through the notes twice, thrice. And not to mention, its the first thing I had been working since afternoon. I just feel inferior or a sense of kiasuism, when there are people in my class who are actually so ahead of tutorials while Im like stuck here, struggling to follow up and barely making it. They make things look so easy while in fact, its not. Half the time I dun understand what is going on in lectures and most of the time, I dun have time to even read through notes to at least try and understand. Why other PCME class ends like so freaking early, while mine ends at like 4plus? Why others can like easily adapt to JC life while I cant? Why is everything so cramped together? Why am I stuck in this fucked up meritocracy system? Its my life damn it. I rather go bathe my rabbits now and bring them over than to do HW. I rather go exercise than stone over some stupid questions which I prolly gonna have no use in the future. I rather talk with ya on msn than to pretend that u arent online.
I feel the stress. But I dont need consolation. I just need a place like this where I can express how I feel completely. Seriously, no consolation. I can get through this.
Now its back to squeezing my brain juice, thats what the world wants.
IcyRoy took a breath on 2/04/2007 05:11:00 PM
