The Crapzzz
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Okay, today is the day when we reaped the harvest from the seeds we had sowed 4 years ago, the release of the O level result. Well, dun really know what to say. I mean in the first place I wasnt really even feeling nervous/excited about the result and yet, I expected myself to fare DAMN well. But well, I got 10 and I cant really say I am contented over it, especially the A2s which bites so much. Just felt that I didnt meet my parents' high expectations set in place by my bro and sis. Although they didnt really say anything and in fact, sounded encouraging, I guess I let them down. Still rmb the release of PSLE score, when I scored 1 mark less than my bro, my mum scolded me although I felt that I did pretty well. That left a scar within me.
Somehow felt SJI so unfamiliar when I went back today. I realised I made alot of much better and much more understanding friends in AJ. Pple there were much more sensitive in their thinking and were much more encouraging. Come to think about it, there wasnt really anyone who I could turn to when I was pretty much desperate and in need of help. Each had their own clique and unfortunately I thought that mine sucks. Still missed the prayers and cheers in SJI though and Ms Goh whom really helped me out alot the last two years. Anw, Congrats to Auggy for achieving 10 A1s and XD and Lex for achieving 8 A1s.
Now comes the choosing JC part once again. I dun wanna think about it.
Somewhat feeling uncertain about myself and things happening now.
Aint gonna lose control, Am gonna stay strong.
IcyRoy took a breath on 2/10/2007 12:00:00 AM